Yes, six weeks into this book I’m flunking.  The book is easy to read, the author is captivating, I get the message….it’s just those dang things you are suppose to do to find “me”.  Well I just don’t have time for this journey…but, isn’t that the point of the book and the journey all together.  What stumped me were The Basic Tools.  I’m thinking two things.  One perhaps I should do this in 10 years when my youngest will be turning 20 not 10. Two and I’m leaning more towards this one.  I’m putting way too much on this trying to figure out who I am thing. 

Yesterday as I was sitting in the parking lot waiting for Owen to come out of the school I caught up 5 days of the once a day little readings. I have to figure out the Basic Tools and how to incorporate it in my life.  Not sure when I will get to that. Felt completley overwhelmed by this journey and this place in life.  Yesterday was one of those rough rough days where everything closes in and all my spinning plates came crashing to the ground.

Today sitting in the parking lot with the sun beating in the window, blasting Black Veil Brides “Ritual” (one of my favorite songs on STWOF), I felt so much happiness.  Found my way to recharge.  Music just does that for me.  Helps me ground my inner worries. Add sunshine on a 20 degree cold as you know what Colorado day and you can’t help but, smile. I realized something.  This journey is supposed to be helpful not a chore.  So I will take another gander at these tools as she calls them.  See how I can incorporate some.  Here’s a biggie…GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION to find out what makes Maureen well Maureen. 

I know it’s not earth shattering or rocket science but, it’s hard to admit I just am not good at doing things for just me. One of the things was to go an hour a week somewhere by yourself.  Good Lord where would I go.  I have been a stay at home mom for 14 years.  My whole existence day by day is pretty much based on who needs to be where and at what time.  So this is going to take some thought.  I really enjoy Anna’s company and the idea of going to the mall or bookstore without her is truly unappealing.  I will have to find something….not sure what…

So until I get a few minutes uninterrupted in front of a computer again.  Think about this.  Where would you go once a week by yourself to start discovering what you like or what makes you tick.